Jack's Sweet Moments

So Alex is normally my child that comes up with the cutest ideas. Just today he put his dad's shoes on and it was So cute watching him act like daddy. Now every now and again Jack has his own sweet moments as well that make your heart melt. Lately Jack has had some great ideas. 

Tonight after prayers he said to me "Mommy I wish we were like Sea Horses" I asked him "Why" he replied "So that Daddy could carry our baby in his pouch and have him in like two days". My heart melted a little and I said "Yes dear I wish he could as well" :0) 

It was so cute, he then needed to remind me that only sea horses do that. It was a sweet moment from my sweet boy.

FB update post

This is a test to see if Jim was able to get my FB page to automatically send out a "hey I updated my blog" message. :)

Baby Update

I went to see my OB/GYN yesterday for a routine visit, however this time I had many questions to ask. I had thought it over for sometime that I wanted to try to have this baby natural (no c-section) and I did read that it was possible from stories of many other mother's in my situation. See the difference is this wouldn't be a normal V-BAC because most V-BAC's are done after one c-section. Since I have had two c-sections it changes the rules.

Even thought most women can have a successful V-BAC after more than two c-setions it is more risky. There are many factors why it can be more risky. Usually it is because the scar hasn't had enough time to truly heal to handle the throws of contractions and tearing can occur with serious bleeding. Now I understand this when you have babies every two years or less, but it had been 6 years since my last c-section and I know I am a better candidate for a V-BAC. 

However even after all this information I looked into, when I talked to my doctor (who I have had since I was 16-and who delivered both my children and MYSELF) I have a lot of trust in this woman. She has done this job for 30 years and have seen many changes in rules and regulations and why they were brought to be. Even still I wanted her to tell me that I could try to have this baby naturally.

After we talked for about 30-45 minutes she told me that the college of medicine in OB/GYN has strongly recommended not doing a V-BAC after two c-sections. She told me that yes some doctors/midwifes etc.... still allow this practice and she said it can have about a 60% success rate, however it can also have some high risks as well. She told me that at Carle they follow the guidelines set forth by the college of medicine in OB/GYN. 

So that left me with two options. Either change doctors and hospital or stay and realize that my hopes for a natural delivery will never happen.

Many women would look at this and say who cares you still get your baby either way, and there can be perks to a c-section. The problem is as most know, I had a horrible experience having Jack. It was a miracle that we both came out of it healthy and OK. It was traumatizing. So when it came time to have Alex it had only been 19 months since my bad experience and I was terrified of doing it again so I opted for the c-section. Even Alex's birth had it's complications. The delivery went great but I ended up with a spinal headache due to the epidural. I also had problems with breastfeeding that even after I was told the two had nothing to do with each other, I am still convinced that the c-section messed up my hormones.

So after both of these experiences and being a little older and having time pass, I wanted to give it a try to have a baby normally. So when I was told this wouldn't happen, I was crushed. I don't want to leave my doctor she is amazing and she is truly caring to my feelings. She understood why I felt the way I do,and she gave me examples of other cases before the rules were set of a few instances of V-BAC's that had complications. She told me if any guidelines change before I am due she would consider it, but she doesn't want to risk it.

I told her how I feel like I play NO part in having my children. I mean I don't give birth-they are removed (like a mass), I don't get to see them born, I don't get to hold them right after they are born, heck I don't even get to see them (except for a quick glance and kiss) until an hour plus after it is all done. C-sections are the most impersonal way to bond with the child you have carried for 9 months. I mean I do all this work and go through all this discomfort and I don't get anything from it as it happens. I know I still get my baby and I know back in the old days it was the way things were done, but we have changed and I think knowing the options women have now when it comes to having their babies, makes me so upset that I still have to have the 1940s version of having my baby. 

We talked it over and I asked her "what if we take the curtain down so I can be more involved" and she said that wouldn't be a problem. She told me that I couldn't really still see anything, and that the curtain is to keep fluids from splattering on me, but I told her I have worked in the vet field for years and getting my fluids splattered on me would be the least gross of things I have had splattered on me. She laughed! I then asked "what about a mirror"? I wanted a mirror if I had them naturally so why not while having a c-section?? She told me that is a great idea-she said no one has ever asked to watch. I told her I have assisted in many surgeries and it won't bother me a bit and I will be so much happier and I will feel I am actually doing something.

So what it comes down to after my pages of writing, is that I cannot have Kian naturally, I will have to have a c-section, but my doctor is trying to accommodate me in anyway she can to make this experience so much better, knowing what I have been through with my other two.

Also the appt. went great, he is such a little mover every time they try to get a heart rate he moves around it's pretty funny. He is ornery!! He is healthy, mom is healthy, I have only gained 11.5 lbs and I am over 1/2 done so I am happy with that. Other than our talk it was a pretty uneventful visit. :)

Until next time

Liz

Sweet Moments

So last night we ended our perfect day with a perfect evening of bike riding and dog walking. It was wonderful. The best part however was when Jim finally got to feel Kian kick. He had been kicking like a soccer player for over a month but just in the last day has gotten big enough to kick so other people could feel him.

Today was even better, after picking the boys up from school, while helping Jack with his homework, Kian was going for a goal again. I laid back and had Alex put his hands on my belly and he got to feel Kian kick and then Jack rushed over and put his hands on my belly and Kian kicked nice and hard for him. The boys were very excited. Jack goes "Is he mad"?? Alex asks "Do you still want me to be a baby in your tummy"?? I love little ones and there perceptions on life.

It has been a great day and I am looking forward to a relaxing evening watching a movie with my little ones.

Until Later,

Liz

I hate my computer!!

So I have had massive issues all day with sites not wanting to load how I want them too. I can't get any comments to post on my blog, I wanted a preggers ticker on my FB and it finally did it through Internet Explorer but not through Firefox and then it didn't even post like I wanted it too.

It has been super frustrating. I have changed all my blog settings so comments should be posting and there not!! Ahhhhh!!

So I am writing this one to see if I can comment on it, I guess we will see and if not-then it felt good to rant a little at least ;)

Thinking before speaking :)

So you gotta love when children say something and don't think about what they are about to say.

For example my kid quote of the day today is from Jack at the grocery store in the deli section.

He asks me "Mommy does turkey come from pigs"

I replied "Jackson think about that question and you tell me"

He goes " Um...... is doesn't"

I then said " Babe, turkey comes from TURKEY'S" :0)

Thanks for the smile sweet boy!!

Truly Blessed

I started my morning out with breakfast in bed again thank to my sweet caring children. This morning I was given Frosted Flakes. :0) Then the boys and I went grocery shopping-that went better than expected. After that the boys and I and one of our dogs Stashia went to Allerton for a picnic. We saw the Fulton's and the Sowinski's there as well. We had a very nice time.
This afternoon we have just relaxed and have been enjoying this beautiful weather. The boys have also begged me long enough that we got our fall decorations out and got that done today as well. I can't blame them though. I am SO ready for fall and today has felt the closest so far. I haven't decided on what to make for dinner, but homemade potato soup is in the lead so far. With the weather being so cool and the nice breeze and all the fall stuff up, I think that calls for some good old fashion soup. :0) I hope everyone has had a great Labor Day and a great start to your week. :0) Until next time, Liz

Joys of being a parent......

Well I have to admit-as I am sure you all know I have been a little down lately with losing Daisy.

We this morning I was wanting to sleep in a while but my dear children who had been up since 6 am didn't agree. :0) Well after the boys coming in about every 10-15 mins, I started to get a little agitated with them and when I got up to go to the bathroom told them to leave us alone so we could sleep.

Well when I got back to the bed I looked at my side table and sitting there was a bowl of Raisin Brand cereal (no milk-because he was scared he would spill it). My sweet Alexander had brought me breakfast in bed.

It made me tear up, here I was getting upset with them because I just wanted to sleep in, and Alex snuck in with a bowl of cereal and put it by my bedside.

It was a nice surprise and it is nice to feel appreciated by your children. To have them realize that mommy does this everyday for them and how it makes them feel and to know that mommy would like that too occasionally. :0)

So thank you sweet boy for your kind gesture!! No better way to start off your day!!

Liz

For you Sweet Daisy

THE EULOGY

Look not where I was
For I am not there
My spirit is free
I am everywhere

In the air that you breathe
In the sounds that you hear
Don't cry for me Mom
My spirit is near

I'll watch for you
From the other side
I'll be the one running
New friends by my side

Smile at my memory
Remember in your heart
This isn't the end
It's a brand new start

By: Carol Kufner

© Copyright Carol Kufner. Reprinted by permission.

Daisy Mae

Today was one of the emotionally hardest days I have had in my life. I have lost grandparents and have been crushed by it (some more than others) and I have lost pets that I have loved, but today I lost a part of my family.

July 8th 2000 ten little puppies were born into this world. The third and most persistent puppy of all was the third one out and that was Daisy Mae. I knew the moment she was born that she would be staying with me. A friend of mine at the time had given me a Daisy bracelet that had big white daisy beads and I loved it and when Daisy was only a few weeks old it fit her great. That is how she got her name.

When I had moved home I took Daisy with me. My parents weren't sure what to think about this pitbull puppy. The first night I slept on the couch with Daisy in a box next to me, well needless to say she didn't like that idea. So she cried enough that I let her up on my tummy and she fell asleep, well that was until she peed on me in the middle of the night. :)

When it was time for me to move into my own place I took Daisy with me. Mom at that point had become attached to Daisy. My mom lost her mother (my grandma Dee) in March of this same year and it was horrible on her. We were all very close. So mom would say if Daisy seems sad she can come visit us and stay over. Well after a week of living on my own I could see that Daisy longed for my mom and vice versa. So I let Daisy go live with my parents.

Of course I had gotten her into the bad habit of sleeping in bed with me so for the next 11 years my parents would have Daisy sleep with them. Daisy was an amazing, and patient dog. She went through me having two boys, losing our Golden Retriever Vaughn, and a sickness when my mom's step dad was dying. But through it all she always made it through it. She was SO strong.

Well about 4 weeks ago we noticed her eating habits had changed and we chalked it up to the heat and age...no biggie. Well then one day I noticed her abdomen was enlarged and at that time I knew something was not right.

On Monday August 29th we took Daisy in to the vet to get some bloodwork done that was a little off but not enough to say "yap that's what it is" so we took her home that night and made an appt. for the U of I the next day.

Tues August 30th Daisy went into the U of I and they did some tests and a sonogram. It came back what we had feared. She had fluid in her abdomen and she had a large tumor on her spleen and several smaller tumors on her liver. Daisy was dying. There was nothing that we could do to help her. Dad took her home and last night her family came to spend one more evening with her. we cried, we stayed by her side the whole evening. We told her what a good girl she was, and how much we loved her. Mom made her some popcorn and she even got to sleep in between mom and dad last night. It was a bittersweet last night.

Wed. August 31st I dropped the boys off at school and went into Champaign to spend the morning with Daisy and mom and dad. Daisy got a great breakfast hand fed to her of scrambled eggs and cheese. Then we spent the morning laying with her, loving on her, taking pictures and video. I then went and took care of all her arrangements. At 10:45 we got in the car and headed over to the vet. Mom rode in the back with Daisy-who snuggled up to mom the whole way there. It was the shortest car ride ever. Once we got there, I went in to tell the doctor we were there and mom and dad said there goodbyes. Once the doctor came out I held Daisy's head in my hands and I kissed on her and loved on her and talked to her about how good she was, and how much we loved her.

I was there when that puppy took her first breath and I was there with her when she took her last. I cannot describe that emotion. We then took her over to be cremated. It was hard leaving her there, but it was even harder coming back to the house and not having her barking to greet us. The house felt so empty and it will for a long time. Nothing and no one could or will ever take the place of Daisy Mae. She was there for my mother in the hardest thing in her life. She was a rock for me in a bad part of mine. She has always loved and never expected anything in return.

Daisy Mae you truly are our best girl ever!! I know you are ok, because you have so much family up there with you to take you in. You get to see Vaughn again and play stick. You are no longer in pain. Run my sweet puppy, run as fast as you can. Smell all the sweet smells, and relish in the love you are getting up there. Remember though that you have so many down here that will think and love you forever.

I love you sweet girl.

Momma

Dear Daisy

We found out today that Daisy Mae our family dog (parents, brother, and I) has cancer. She has been ill the last week and she had gained weight as if it happened overnight and she looked very bloated. Yesterday mom said it was so bad she wouldn't even get out of bed so she went into the vet and did some blood work. Unfortunately the blood work didn't show anything significant other than she was anemic (which we knew). So she went to the U of I today and had a sonogram done and our fears were made a reality. She has a large tumor on her spleen and several smaller ones on her liver. There is nothing we can do for her. So tomorrow morning she will go to heaven. I will post more later as I am so distraught I can't continue now.

Liz

Alex's Winter Hat

So I decided without a pattern to try to knit a hat for Alex and I think all things considered that it turned out well, and the biggest thing is he loves it and wants to where it all the time now. :) I still have a little more to do with it, but this is the rough draft picture. :0) I also have a few-along the way-pictures to show later.

Lego Land

We went up to Chicago this weekend to visit Jim's sister and husband, to celebrate Jim's parents 41st wedding anniversary, and to visit Lego Land. We started our venture by driving to Bloomington to catch the Amtrak to take up to Union Station.

Jim and I have done this a handful of times and it is a really nice and relaxing way to travel to the city. The best part of the train ride this time was it was the boys first true train ride (not just the Monticello train). They were like a kid in a candy store. They were so excited and it was hard to keep them in their seat-which was ok because the boys and I had to share two seats thanks to college kids that's wouldn't sit by anyone else, we did get lucky enough one college guy got up and offered his seat to us-that way Jim could sit across from us.


We arrived into the city after the sun had gone down and it was a beautiful site all lit up. The kids were in awe. Jim's sister Kelly and her hubby Paul picked us up at the station and then we headed back to the hotel where Jim's parents were waiting for us. We didn't get in until 8:10 so we got to the hotel about 9ish and then we watched a little tv to unwind and then we hit the hay.

We got up the next morning and had breakfast and swam in the incredibly warm pool for about and hour and then got ready and headed out to Lego Land in Schaumberg. It was AMAZING!! We couldn't believe some of the stuff they created. They had a display of Chicago. It was awesome. It was detailed, things moved, and lit up. It was so cool. They also had florescent lights that made it go from day to night in the city and it was so neat.


Then we headed into the Jungle which was probably my favorite place of the entire building. It was so cool to see all the animals and critters they made out of Legos.

Then we met President Obama and Batman-I mean really two of America's hero's here. :) Then we rode on this cool little Dragon ride that was of a village-with a King, Queen, Dragon and such and that was a lot of fun even though Alex I don't think opened his eyes the entire time.



Upstairs we went.....up there the boys got to do a Lego building workshop and make a bumblebee. That was a lot of fun and we could have bought that bumblebee for $5. Uh...ya...no... However they had a great time doing it. The we went over the the "factory" where they got to learn how Lego's are made. That was neat but we were shoved in a closet basically with no air flow-so I didn't stay long. After that we went and saw a 4D film-that of course was Lego men and woman-that was pretty cool and actually better 3D effects than any other 3D film I have ever seen.










Then we headed to the cafe and had a little snack-they boys rode another ride over there and then they just got to play with Lego's and play in the big play structure. It was SO much fun. We got to see Darth Vader and R2D2 which was what the boys wanted to see more than anything. Plus they got to get a little Lego thing in the shop.

After that we went and had the anniversary dinner at the Cheesecake Factory and OMG.....it was so good and the desert- I mean cheesecake as big as my head. I had the Vanilla Bean cheesecake with raspberry sauce. It was to die for-and I felt like it afterward :0)

Then we headed home via Jim's parents van-because one train ride with the kids is enough their first time. :0)

It was a super fun little day vaca...the boys had a blast and I know we will be going again. I would like to hit the one in the city next time though.

Until next time

Liz

Memories

My Grandpa Moore (mom's dad) and My Uncle Greg (mom's brother)

We come from good old dirt poor farmers-Family Photo
(My Grandpa Moore is the on in the bibs with no shirt)

My Brother Jake and I (my grandma o. made this dress)

My mom (the little one) and her siblings

My Favorite Picture of My Grandma Dee (Mom's Mom) I love this woman

Jake and I

Taking a bath at Grandma Dee's House

My mom and me!! Isn't she pretty!!

My Grandma Dee, Jake and I at X-mas in Aroma Park

Jake and I

My Momma

Me-I love this picture and outfit

My Daddy and me Hiking-I love this picture of us

This is where it all went wrong-Now you know where the nudist side and I guess the nature side of me cam from. :) Dad and me in Virginia!!

I love this picture of me and my Grandpa O. (Dad's Dad) (I love this man) I was his little girl-his fav :) (Well that is until Taylor was born several years later)

Grandma O (Dad's mom) and me. I miss her so much.

My parents having a blast-can't you tell by dad's expression. :0)

My mom holding me while dad and Aunt Kathy look on

My Dad (hippy) :0)

My dad

While I was looking for a picture of my little brother for his B-Day, I came across a bunch of great old ones.

I hope you enjoy!!

Liz

Aug 23rd 2011

Jacob Michael Oliveira
28 years ago today!!
I love you Bookie Doo!!

Today is my little brothers 28th B-day. I wish I could tell him Happy Birthday but his is in Colorado hiking on a mountain top. So I hope he is having a great B-day with Dad and his buddy Matt up on a mountain top. :0)

Yesterday I worked super hard and cleaned my house (well all but the bedrooms ) and then had a few friends by last night to play cards. It was SO much fun and very much needed. Of course I didn't get to bed until about 2:30 this morning. I am too old for that. :0)

Today I decided to take off a day of cleaning since my good old pregger body can't handle two days in a row of intense work apparently, so I decided to start the boys scarfs. Well I got about 6 rows of Alex's scarf and then passed out for three hours....I was obviously very into my knitting. :0)

I don't know what I have planned for the rest of the day. I am going to make something for dinner, but I don't have a clue what. I have a picture I would like to load of little Kian Michael. I hope you enjoy it.



Until Later,

Liz